On Love and Openness
issue no. 4 | wedding day thoughts, gratitude, and God's grace
camille’s is a personal column by where I reflect on what I’m tending to at home, in my work, and as a pilgrim in the world. A space to document little delights from our days, and working thoughts — many that are still taking shape. I write here with no regular cadence and share when there is enough gathered.
It’s soooo beyond me that we are going to have another little family member in our arms this week. And yet, with this being the third time around, I’ve never been more ready to embrace and love this little person. These are the yeses behind the veil.
I hold tears back every time a couple makes their vows on their wedding day. A day I once viewed as happily ever after, I now know is only the start of learning how to love. I don’t know what’s in store for this couple, but I pray for them to lean in with humility, and to be open to receiving God’s graces.
In our seven years of marriage, there have been many moments where my heart has been shattered. There are times when the only place I knew to go was back to God. And every time (though not immediately), I’m taken aback by how the room in my heart has grown to receive and have capacity for more. I feel this way today about my marriage and my family.
We’re wiser. We love better. We know and anticipate for one another better. And we’re moving through it all together. I’m so grateful. Every little person we’ve been entrusted to love and raise has made our lives infinitely richer in every way.
I know many people these days want to calculate and make logical decisions about everything, but today I am praying for them: that they can humbly say yes to love despite not always knowing what lies ahead.
A definite slowing down. My brain is not as stimulated and I don’t have as many ideas. I do have a lot of drafts though, so if I start publishing a whole lot out of no where, just know that I wrote most of it pre-baby and never finished the piece.
Almost nothing. Mostly sleeping and moving as I’m able. Mike has taken care of ALL the nesting. From deep cleaning everything, to all of the errand runs, to preparing every meal, to organizing all of the baby clothes, to making room in our devices, to packing and prepping the car seats, to writing letters to our three girls, to preparing gifts for the siblings to one another, to reading up on parenting in this next stage, to making sure I’m well taken care of and anticipating what my needs would be postpartum. He is the greatest.
I got a lash lift and eyebrows tinted from home… Yay! I just feel peaceful and ready to meet this baby.
Please pray for us! Thank you in advance!!
Camille
We are also expecting our third baby, our first girl, this week (hopefully!!), so this resonates with me!